my heart feeling

actually i not want bloging tonight,but i think share story in blog is the best way for lose stress :)
i don't know tonight i really felling sad ,alone,hurt,and other ~ #feeling want cry  the 
i don't know why my bf being ignore me now ...
he really silent ,and no say anything ,sometime he cold to me also ....
i don't know why he suddenly like this  :( he really different now ...
he never call my phone anymore ,never say good morning or good night to me ,and in fb also he silent :( 
i really blurr now ,i cant think clear about him now :( :'( 
i still love him ~ and my feeling to him was not change ~ 
but....
i don't know his feeling to me :'( 
why he like this  ?,why he ignore me now ? :( i really dont know why ....:'( 
or maybe .......
:( 

i really miss time when u still so sweet to me 
when we joke togeteher ,do silly think in camera,when u call my phone at night ,when u kiss me in phone and still many .....i miss alll ~ 
i happy when u care me ....but now u are ignore me and u ignore me no reason !!!  
when i ask you "do you love me ?" 
you reply "i love ,whatever you not love me i will love u always" 
i wish all he say is true ,i not want broken heart again :'( 
 when i see other couple so sweet,and take care each other ,sometime i get envy :( 
when 1st time we love each other ,he more sweet and best  then other boys #for me but i dont know why now it's felling different ,when u still sweet to me i never get envy to other couple ,but this time i envy :( i want be sweet with you,i want you take care me like before :(
when i do everything ...i also only think about him ,all day also no inbox or what ,,,,only SILENT :'( 

 i just hope the best way for my life and my future to God 
but i want he know ,"i miss him today" and i really want say "i love you darling" and " i'm glad u came into my life "but i will not say this to hiim 1st today :( because i want know how much he miss me when we no talk or maybe he will not miss me ....
 i am wait he say that 1st to me ...i just hope he bck sweet to me again ,and out love will never end ...that i hope ~ 

when i sad i listen this video ~ :) :( :'( 
go listen this song :) this is so nice :)
and i think this all about my felling tonight 
thank you for read my felling haha ~ 
maybe this is my problem ~ but i share it on blog for lose stres only :) 
thx for visit my blog all :D 
good night for you alll ~ and good night for my honey :* ♥ :') I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DEAR !  ♥